one of my little ones holds her breath when she takes a deep breath in, its not a "im going to hold my breath" kind of thing. it just happens. more when shes stressed and wants to hide. and like she wants to speak but cant-ish. like shes too scared to speak it...

also before last time anytime Jaime would do that, she would go back within, pushing someone else out to the surface.(i dont remember this, but she just said thats why she would do it too... and something about hiccups and when we slept and woke up a lot.. but not something i should share right now).

EDIT: i think the first time i realized a big impact of my actions or words to other people was when i reread a text to a friend that i sent telling her how i was doing. and one thing i said was that i was wishing to have one of those stuffed animals "to make hug me".
something with the same wording back when i couldnt remeber but it would be documented in hospitalizations admit papers where i said things like "to get better" or "to get out" and other things when asked questions about why i felt i was there and other things. a lot of the words that one of the little ones uses to speak to others outside of our internal system seem to start with "to get.." or "to make..." or short straight to the point kind of speaking.)

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