Wow, you have described my life exactly.... are you sure that you are not me? I have no friends. I find it hard to trust. If I can't trust myself how can I trust others? I am very socially awkward, which is part of my problem. Your not alone, I'm in the same boat as you. I feel lonely 24/7 and my depression causes me bad chest pains and I always feel like I'm imploding. I think this will sound stupid but... I was wondering if we can connect, some how. Your life situation is a lot like mine. I hope I don't sound stupid or desperate. Your not alone and I know I'm not either now. Thanks.