I have been having strong urges to self harm since probably slightly before I started therapy 9 months ago....and I haven't. Last time I did so was prob over 10 years ago...but tonight I was so close. The closest I have been...over a stupid fight with h. I don't even think it was that big of a deal. I'm really scared and the only reason I know I fought through it was because I'm afraid to tell my T about it and I know if I do it, it will be too big of a secret to keep and could harm our t relationship I don't know what is wrong with me...