I have trouble knowing sometimes, what is procrastination and what isn't. Is it a "feeling" or an action? If you procrastinate "starting" and then get things done well and on time, have you procrastinated/are you a procrastinator or is it just one's style, how one works best (under pressure)? If you're a worrywort and feel like you're procrastinating, are you or do outside observers get to judge? Can you procrastinate at any time in a project or only starting it?

I have my biggest trouble with "wanting" to do something and not doing it. I often can't tell if I really intend/want to do it or only like the idea of doing it. Too, there are "long" projects and I think I should work on them all the time and if I take a break I'm procrastinating and can feel guilty or afraid I won't start again. I do have trouble starting/stopping projects sometimes; I write a paper in too-long bursts, often with equally too-long periods between. I don't know if I should call that procrastination and work on it as such or if it's something else that would benefit from looking at in a different way.

I get A's in all my courses but don't like how I study. I got some help from a good book on "how to read" at the college level; it pointed out that you only benefit from reading if you do it the way that benefits you, personally; you shouldn't just sit and turn X pages for Y period of time like some students do and feel virtuous and like "I've done my reading." That's not reading. You have to personally choose what to read and interact with the material. I do that and it works for me but I still feel like I'm not doing it "right." I get a lot more information off the Internet these days, often don't read the recommended texts (or learn the material and then skim the text to make sure I haven't missed anything important; or write a paper by "reading" the material at the same time I'm writing). Basically I "immerse" myself in what's to be learned but that's "messy" and doesn't appear as a "Read Chapter 5 for next week" sort of task? I love neatness and order (rules and knowing what's "expected") but I don't give myself much and that confuses me. It's like wading into a garbage heap and asking "what stinks?" :-)