As a kid I was autistic and couldn't communicate well since I didn't learn to speak until I was 6. I didn't know hand flapping and other motions were abnormal back then. I had severe OCD and ADHD which made school impossible. In high school I noticed I was starting to think differently and became more intelligent. I learn to control my hand flapping and other quirks in public for the most part. I learned how to socialize to an extent and started to understand that my OCD was abnormal so I did my best to control my symptoms. My grades improved and I became an A student, but I got hospitalized several months after the changes. I was manic and tried to off myself at the time. I'm not the same person as I was before the schizoaffective kicked in along with other things. Life is odd.