Well youve answered it yourself. 'I sit in my room alone in front of my computer' You have to force yourself to go out and talk to people. I know its hard. I do everything on my own and i'm fed up with my own company but i go out. Yesterday i spent the day in London. Went to 2 exhibitions, had a salt beef beigel, (you say bagel we say beigel) and went to my poetry group meetup ( got lost and went to the wrong cafe amongst other things) and read out my risque poems which bamboozled them and had a good day. Thats the answer. If you can, GET OUT.