Hi there.
I am sorry you went through that with your boyfriend ,men can be so horrible and dumb sometimes.I have had many boyfriends where they didnt like my body or they did and then I gained weight.Now I am looking for a man who doesnt care what I look like or what my weight is ,just what my heart is ,or prefers them bigger,I dont know do guys like that exsist?maybe they are scared of bigger women thinking they have too much power-they want women to be fragile and skinny.I dont know sometimes I think I couldnt get naked in front of anyone ever again.I am very deppressed at the moment -meant to be going on holiday but the very thought of people I know and the beach -I just wanna cancel the ticket.so I am trying to diet but I have speant so much of my life dieting I cant stand it and it throws me into a deep depression.and worse still coz I have a feeling the scales are not going to shift no matter what I do-4 weeks to go and I am panicking .On the plus side the passed couple of days I have felt more in control sticking ridgidly to a measured food plan.but who knows what will happen tommorrow.I think I might buy a mini trampoline coz that I can do with the t.v on .this deppression is really crippling me I cant bring myself to go down the gym or even do sit ups at home -maybe its just shire laziness.I used to do yoga every morning (1 and half hours ) before breakfast (not easily)and I was really fit .maybe I will buy a trampoline and do that in the morning -gotta get a new positive pattern going.fight the disease.But anyway I think fat is beautiful(seriously) just not on me .ah well.
blueflower