So for a while now I have been having issues with my coworker. We usually get along great and she can be a nice person when she wants to, but something has changed.
Now, I know I am not the most smartest person in the world and I still have alot of learning to do, but lately its as if she is holding me accountable for all of my mistakes at an unfair level. Its gotten so bad that now, when it comes to work stuff, I feel overly self-concious about what I do around her to the point that I almost have to bring myself to do it when she is not around because I am afraid of what she might be thinking I am handling stuff.
I understand that she has a family to think of and that she needs her job and obviously the last thing I want to do (besides me loosing my job) is having her loose hers over something I may he caused. But I still feel its unfair that she treats me as if everything I do is wrong or bad when as far as I know I am just doing things to the best of my ability.
I feel so conflicted because she has "somewhat" tried to help me overcome some of my issues by making me aware of this I didnt really notice before or giving my life advice, but the working aspect of it has become so strained and painful for me it makes me wonder if me caring for her beyond just a work relationship is even worth it.

What seems to have opened my eyes though is how calm I actually felt without her there this week since she was on vacation. Unfortunately now I am feeling anxious about tomorrow when she is coming back. Last time she went away something somewhat big happened and she threw in my face that everytime she goes away I make a mess out of something. Now I know this time I kept a pretty low profile and whatever I didnt have to deal with, I have left for her (as per her orders) however I cant help but feel stressed about what she might say or if she will find fault in something I did. After having (generally speaking) such a nice week at work I hate to feel so stressed.