Hello Community!
This is my first post and also the very first time that I`m going to talk to someone about my condition.
I am anxious all the time!Anxious because I want to be perfect all the time,in whatever I do.My mind never rests.And this condition takes away my freedom!If I do something not as good as I would like to do it,there is no way to forgive myself.
Sometimes if I think that I tried hard enough for something,I may think to myself that I could do better but at least I did the best I could at that time.But if I do something not good enough because I did not think too much about it there is no way I could forgive me.I mean,if I leave my mind wondering or day-dreaming,if I do not totally control my thoughts or my moves,I feel low,I feel guilty...
You may wonder why I am feeling this way.The reason is that I do not want to do a mistake that I am going to regret,something that would be an obstacle for me in the future.What if I do or say something that will make other people dislike me,or people that I care for will dislike me and change how they thought of me or how they felt about me...
And I do not want to change that!Trying to be perfect is a good intention I think.If I stopped trying to be perfect I would feel guilty again...But that anxiety and the sorrow after mistakes is...
That is my condition.Thank you for taking the time to read this post.Any thoughts would be appreciated.