It's okay to ramble. Never need to apologize for it here. Speaking to a T is helpful for some people. It is so/so for me. It's always been hard for me to find the 'right' one. Has to be someone I feel comfortable with, and most of them I just don't. You could try to find one. You'd be under no obligation to go back. I think T's tend to be a bit more willing to listen to potential eating disorders than doctors. Especially now that it's getting out there that anyone of any size can develop an eating disorder. There was actually an article about it on the APA's website. I'm not sure if it's still there, but it's worth looking at if it is. I've been afraid to bring up my own potentially disordered behaviors. Also, because of weight. But if you think speaking to a T might help you, it's worth trying. If not, don't sweat it. Not everyone benefits from one. And some people take a while to find one they DO benefit from.

For me? I've honestly been responding to my pills (in regards to my mood disorder, not my eating) better than I ever responded to therapy.