I went thru that a little last year. I had had so many deaths back to back I went numb I guess. you said you are staying busy so maybe that is helping to deal with it in a different way. maybe too the fact that she was in her 90's and you realize she had had a very long life and it was simply her time to go. I did eventually cry some and I still miss my MIL terribly and even cry a little bit. it bothers me too but I am ok with it now. hope this helps