So uhm... I'm a little confused about when things would be called abuse or simply a parent correcting their kid. Or when you would call something s.xual abuse or not. It's not always that crystal clear, atleast not to me.
It bothers me though so here I am. I kinda feel bad about it though.

Like when I was younger my parents would put me over their knee for things like not listening or dropping a full glass or a bad grade at school. Except I thought it was normal but maybe it isn't, or atleast not as many parents spank their kids as I thought. But I guess I deserved that though. It would just make it hard to sit still for the next few days.
Sometimes when I really make him mad he will take out his belt though and then he makes me take of my shirt and hold on to something and I have to try and not make any sound or he will just get madder. But I guess I just shouldnt have made him mad in the first place.

He's pretty strict but only because i keep dissapointing him.
At the end of the day on saturday or sunday he makes up the balance, that's what he calls it, and depending on the outcome he will punish me again.
It's pretty embarassing but he still spanks me sometimes. Usually he will just use the belt or something though but he always makes me do some other stuff too like s.xual stuff. I feel very embarassed about that