This is how I was when I was on Geodon. I was flat. I had no desire to do anything cause it took away a part of my creativity and desires. I hated it, but it was at the time the only med that I was some what stable on. I am on a different one now and not flat like before, but I have no desire to be creative or do much of anything. I have thought of getting a part time job again, but I know that I would be back in the hospital or feeling like I had lost my mind under the stress of a job. So I to sit and wait as the days pass me by wondering what life holds next.