i think the break was good for me too. for the first time... i talked. and talked. and talked and talked and talked. i think he might have found it hard to get much of a word in, actually.

:-)

i told him more about rational me. and about some of the conflicts there. i told him about the kind of work i do and the kind of work i'm ambivalent about getting into.

i told him about posting on boards. he said he never has read any mental health boards and he promised he wouldn't start. i told him about how involved i was in terms of time. about some of my social relationships at work. about how i'm not posting at this other board anymore.

he was really terrific.

i told him about stuff i've been reading too. that book about 'neural plasticity and the power of mental force'. about how i enjoyed reading it and about some of the stuff it was saying about how mindfulness meditation seemed to break the OCD circuit.

he seemed... a little surprised. a little surprised, but okay. i told him that the other one (who i've said i really didn't want to talk about) had been crying a lot. and that i was scared rational me would bully her. and he knew she was little. and i told him her name.

and then i was exhausted. but happy. she isn't crying so much anymore.

:-)