I think I am just kind of scared to deal with this again Tuesday so I am working my self into a frenzy and upset to avoid it and focus on the one little thing she messed up on. I feel I did all this to myself by starting that time line again. I know my T said it is good that I am allowing myself to look at this stuff but I don't think I have a choice it is there and not so sure it is good for me to look at this stuff.