Not sure if it's a bipolar thing or not. I've been diagnosed with bipolar once and even BPD once, but neither are good fits, possibly a lighter version of BP may be, or some thing else but yes I can definitely relate! But some schizotypal could also relate too I think. I always knew I was different and indeed for a while felt I was special! And there was a period I had the Truman Show syndrome, that was of course before the Jim Carrey movie of that name lol. I felt every one was in on the plan and the plan was to mess with me until I finally surrendered or converted some how. I felt nothing was real and everyone were actors. Hope that doesn't freak you out but I just wanted to give you another example of freakishness that is difficult to explain or diagnose. That too could be associated to almost any thing.