wife22 - I have tried to meet his needs in ways other then sex. I have pleasured him. I am not really comfortable doing that. Because at one point I had to do this many many times for the individual who constantly raped me. My H also got angry with me over the years and that was gratifying him was a solution to actually having sex. He would beg, plead, manipulate, and be flat out rude in order to get me to do that. So it is not exactly something I like doing and have had good experiences with.

I jsut wish he would leave me alone and let me heal emotionally. Just during this time that I am working on triggering things in T. When I am trying to over come being someones elses toy, or doing something I don;t want to only to satisfy some one elses need, it has made me feel used in the past. I am trying to work threw that, but continuing on this path is quite difficult.