Woke up incredibly anxious from a dumb Game of Thrones nightmare - I am hating my friend more and more for making me watch it!!

But mood is stable, and has been for the week. This is even the first bad anxiety I have had in a little while too (I am annoyed because it is self inflicted both from watching the stupid show to start with, to going back to sleep after my partner left for work). The OCD has not been nearly as bad this week, it is such a relief. I am trying to figure out why its not so bad this week but the only change I noticed is my change in mood (which is related to hormones not BP)...

I did work the horse on the weekend, and today I am supposed to be going for a ride. But the spewy anxiety is not leaving me, I think the nightmare started it and the nervousness about riding a horse who hasnt been ridden in months is continuing it, along with the having to go to a very anxiety provoking place this afternoon (it is very rare I get out of there without a panic attack). So I dont know if riding will be a good or a bad thing. Logically probably good, but on the other hand I do not want to be so wiped out tonight that I end up sick again... Ugh maybe I just need someone to give me a kick up the bum. My pdoc said I have to give myself a break but when my mood is stable I feel I am just being lazy when I do not make the most of it (regardless of annoying anxiety).

Bluebird, I hope you can get your elevated mood under control. I look forward to your posts, you have a positivity about you that makes me smile. Look after yourself