i am here for you too. i have to say i have a son who's 22 now, took everything i had and still does you've saved yourself from alot of hurt and worry by waiting for children, i can't handle it alot of times, i was always happy for my 40ish sister who never got married and she can do just about anything she wants. l live with my husband its hard sometimes to deal with different moods of either one of us experience, and i do feel a little guilty for not having more children, but i probably would have been thrown in a pshyc ward as i find it hard to even deal with one child. Just hang in there and i'm here for you to if you want to PM me too.