I am truly sorry for your loss. I understand about anger. I was and still am extremely angry. Angry at the doctors, my family, myself, Life in General. I couldn't even deal with peoples comments and attempts at trying to console me in the first few months. I would get pissed at some of the things they would say. You know the comments. It was gods will, she was suffering. Everything happens for a reason. Sometimes I would snap and lash out at people who were trying to comfort me. Then I just shut everyone out. Now nobody even calls or emails me. So your not alone. I don't have any advice for you because I have not really accepted my Moms death yet and her 1 year anniversary of her death is coming up in a few months. They say it does get easier in time. I surely hope it does. I am having just as hard of a time as you are. I can just say to you that your in my thoughts and I pray things get better. Maybe you can go to a grief counselor. Call the hospitals or mental health agencies and ask about one. If you are without insurance there are some places that will charge you a very small fee if anything at all. Call NAMI or the Mental Health Association for referrals. Good Luck to you.