Thanks, ButterflyLady, Simon and Fayerody Pat. It was really, REALLY nice to check in and find your supportive notes. To be honest, I'm surprised not only by the replies here in the thread, but also by how I feel about the replies. The supportive feeling I've experienced is warmer than I had expected.

Fess up, Fayerody -- tell us about Primus and RL Burnside. I'm with all of you that rap is awful, but I'm clueless about some of the other music you mentioned. Usually I'm a fan of what they now refer to as "classic" rock or "Baby Boomer Music" but it hasn't been fitting in well with my uber-blue mood lately.

Tonight I'm keeping a date with Johnie Walker and watching old reruns of CSI. But they keep interupting my shows with tsunami warnings that are being broadcast for my part of the world. That's true, not a delusion. Really.

On a brighter note I'm working up my gumption to try to get together next week to have coffee with a woman I used to work with when I had a job. It's difficult to think about getting together with someone I used to know when I currently feel like such a bleak failure. I feel that if I try to fake a "happy face" it will come across as being insincere. The fear of being found out is almost as uncomfortable as the depression itself. Maybe it feels like a feeling of weakness.