I can not stop thinking about being depressed. Even when I am with my kids trying to have a good time I am preoccupied with my issues. I do not have conversations with anyone with out turning towards me and my issues. I would rather anything in the world than to be this way. When I try to think of other things it is like a black could comes over them with the negative thoughts. Yes I am on meds and in therapy (12 years). Any thoughts would be appreciated.