I see things so much more clearly now.

How stupid and naive I was. I disgust myself sometimes.

I see extreme black and white thinking in myself AND others.

It disgusts me.

I feel like hiding from everyone for a long long long time in a dark, damp, wet cave. Where I might die. I hate life sometimes.

I am not an ogre. But I have been so frreakin stupid.

I don't think ....... ah forget it. I repulse myself.