I was told by someone recently that the amount of things we reflect is so much more than what we believe it to be. Unfortunately the things you write of are the so many problems we have that cause us to act in ways for reasons that are whT entangled our minds. Most importantly is that we obviously recognize that we have issues. Second is learning our negative thoughts and actions and begin to slow down, take a minute and let our thoughts go or realizing what we want to say isn't really what it is. That once we begin to do this is when it becomes easier and easier to control as time goes on. I suppose much of us who are self aware are really just that. We know what we do but yet as much as we say we're going to do better we really are still the same. The only real difference is we know our titles and this makes us think we are doing better. Once again the tug-o-war still continues in our heads and 99% of the time the N in us wins. On the plus side we do want to be better people, to have others understand that we are trying to be a socially better people. I know that we can do this but I agree with the one who told me, until we really recognize our patterns and stop to take it I we will never do better. Our weakness is our minds, our worries of not reflecting back properly. We are all human and we need to accept that we too can be weak, wrong, allow our minds to be ok when things don't go our way. We don't have to be right all the time, we need to just be on with ourselves and not worry as much what others think. We will do this and I know it helps for us to write our thoughts here, these are the things that help me more than my actually therapy. At least we are not alone as so many of us have the same problems. There are so many steps that are part of the road to recovery and I believe with the amount of us here speaking on the parts we're at will make our Travels down this road easier for some. So know your not alone!!