This is not my first time battling with anxiety (I'm on medication), but it is my first time posting about it.

I currently am doing my residency for my doctorate and I'm pretty miserable where I'm placed. I had no choice in where I went (but that's a whole different post).

The supervisors at my residency are the main reason I'm having a hard time. I get yelled at - literally yelled at - for mistakes I've made and even things I didn't have any part of. One direct supervisor tears me apart verbally when reviewing my reports and makes snide, back-handed comments. 5 minutes later, she acts like she didn't just call me worthless. I feel like I am constantly walking on eggshells and that I could be screamed at at any moment. The only support I receive (at work) is from my fellow intern who is struggling with the same kinds of issues I am.

I'm legally obligated to complete my residency at this site and have to be there until August, 2014. My supports (husband, friends, family) keeps telling me "it's only a year" but that doesn't help. It seems so far away, especially sitting here crying as I type this because I'm so anxious about having to go in.

Some days I'm okay. I tell myself that it's temporary and that all of these issues are beyond my control. I can't control the waves but I can learn to surf. Other days, like today, I just cry and cry. I think of all the bad things that could happen, might happen and I just don't know how I'm going to survive day to day, much less another 10 months.

I guess I'm posting here in hopes of feeling like I'm not alone. That "it's just one year" is not the only answer out there and that maybe someone else understands.