Hi fellow mates,

I'm a 22 year old work as a stewardess. Have a big heart, very honest, kind, everything you will want I am that...lol ok now it sounds like a dating profile but noooooo...I'm so heart broken.
I am good looking, worked as a model for some time, a certified fitness trainer...I'm ambitious too..or was at least.
See...I don't date much..my love life is non existent. I feel very invisible. Like I don't exist. Men don't see me as a gf material.
And ofcourse I am not going to be interested in just anyone, but not to that extreme, I hate to be single and have nothing's exciting to happen.
Yesterday someone broke my heart really bad. He is a colleague...and it was my first date with someone at work...cos I always keep it strictly professional...but I had some kind of attraction with this guy. We met spontaneously...and had a great evening...we had strong sexual feelings but he didn't want to do it on the first date which I agreed...but got a bit frustrated..like I felt he wasn't really that into me..cos when it was time for me to go home..I felt coldness...he didn't even open the door for me (ok cos he opened the car door as good gesture when we met earlier...now it was like saying **** off') he wanted kids I don't..but doesn't mean ****. He said next day we are too different and that he just wants kids and a quiet life. You can't talk bat if you want kids on the first date?!
Guys, I just got rejected by this idiot...I feel really bad... Cos I initiated it so I feel stupid. It was a mutual attraction, he said but he has to end it.
Ok...not that I'm really into him...we just met! but I feel something's wrong with me ..why can't some guy try to make me happy ?
Feel so alone, rejected, humiliated, stupid, sad, ......feel like I will never find someone who will love me genuinely, and not change his mind cos of some stupid silly things. I don't trust humans after this experience. Feel like its a cold and harsh world.
And I got rejected earlier this month as well..this time from my ex.

I have a dream to be a single mother...adopting 2 kids, and living alone..happy.
Men don't need me, I don't need them...

Someone like me..it's shocking because I have all the good qualities that every girl and guy desires..
The reality is I have a sad frustrating lonely life.