When I am on my medications for awhile they just quit working, Ive taken alot of meds, that now my doctor doesnt no where else to turn. Right now Im on Depokote, Seroquel, and Welbutrin but there not working anymore, and my doctor doesnt want to take me off of them. He wont even try something new and Im to the point that if there not going to work why should I even bother taking them. In 2005 I was in a crisis hospital 6 times from July until November and once in 2006, because I couldnt take the way I felt I wasnt gitting any better I was gitting worse so I tried to end my life. I felt that nothing was ever going to change and I still feel that. I feel so hopeless, and that I dont have anything to live for. So I just want to die, when I try or think about killing myself it only ends me up in a hospital not died.