I have mentioned stuff about her that bothered me before and it just ended up badly for me because she was able to come back at me for stuff that I do.
Like this morning, because I am so shy sometimes when I speak to people in higher positions, the words that come out are more based on instinct and what pops into my head first, rather than being careful with the way I phrase things. So I was telling her that somebody had asked a question about stuff she does, and exactly how they phrased it was how I phrased it to her. Now yes, I know I couldve/shouldve corrected their phrasing but I just simply responded them in the affirmative using their phrase. Oh, she didnt like that, she was so ticked off that I always seem to minimize what she does whenever someone higher than us asks me. And I am trying to explain to her that that isnt my intention and that I am just responding. But she feels that wasnt good enough, and although not necessarily a mistake, she cant understand why she wouldnt minimize me but I seemingly have no issue doing it to her, which is not true.

I am just tired of trying to be fair while still making sure both our needs are met, but sometimes I know it frustrates her and I can see why, but I wish she could see it from my view. I dont do it on purpose honest to goodness, it just happens so quickly its too late to remedy my mistake. I trid to tell her that the conversation that person and I had it did end up in me leading him to know she does this particular thing more and I dont, but I guess it was too late and wasnt good enough for her.

I think I have come to the conclusion that her and I as a working team we are.....Ok.....but we are better of being casual friends especially since it seems like she is tired of having to deal with me and would prefer she didnt have to. And sadly its come to me feeling that way too about her and me not feeling happy coming in to work anymore.

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