HI Rainymood.

I know those feelings so well, and yes they hold you prisoner. Life lacks spontainoity. Its like a monkey on your shoulder. I needed professional help to dig down and see where these thoughts and voices were coming from. I've since learnt that I will make mistakes because I'm human and thats what "we" do. I've since learnt that growing up I was made responsibe for things that I was to young to be responsible for so could never get "It" right, because it wasnt my job to get it right. It wasn't my job to be perfect.

Take care.