I've been in job where I felt like that and it's horrible. Don't blame your for being anxious. I'm glad you have a good support system and that you are on meds to help you out. The only thing I can tell is put one foot in front of the other. It's not a good situation and don't know of any way to get around it. Wish I had a better solution. Wishing you the best. Keep posting. It helps to be able to let it out.