I remember when I use to wake up and look forward to the day ahead. Now when I wake up I'm constantly questioning , will today be a normal feeling day or no ? I want nothing more than to wake up and feel okay even if the feeling doesn't last long. My emotions cycle so much that I sometimes want to give up , i keep trying to find myself but its hard. I haven't felt normal in so long i forgot how it feels. Im beginning to lose faith and hope. The worse part is with all my sadness i cant even tell anyone why I'm sad. I wish someone understood.