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Nov 04, 2013, 09:16 PM
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Member Since: Mar 2013
Location: USA
Posts: 1,486
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It really sounds to me that you're having perfectly understandable reactions to what is going on: anxiety triggered by the crowds, lack of support from someone you made yourself vulnerable to in sharing your struggle with the anxiety, and then lack of response on FB. The combination of anxiety, shame (perhaps?) of that very anxiety, lack of validation and rejection are all perfectly understandable reasons to feel depressed.
For these very reasons, I don't think that adding an AD is the solution to what you're dealing with. You're hurting, and you're allowed to hurt!  Maybe try giving yourself permission to feel hurt and down because of what has happened, cry, mourn, seek support from more established friends, do things that make you feel good (whether it's a bubble bath, a run, or lounging in the front of the TV watching a great movie, or whatever floats your boat). I do not mean to minimize your pain, quite the opposite -honor your pain and recognize that this too shall pass, with time, with some work. I don't think medications help with the pain of rejection, of feeling alone in what you feel.
As someone else suggested, seeing a therapist may help you to recognize these triggers that bring you so far down and cope with them -someone who can validate your feelings, help you feel that you're not defective in feeling the way you do, and help you to re-frame this experience and cope with the strong emotions it has brought up. There's hope. It may take more or less time to recover from than with the help of an AD (assuming that would even help), but the effect will be far more lasting, and next time around, it may not hurt so much.
Best of luck and I hope you feel better soon.
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