I'm completely broke because I've been unemployed for a couple weeks and I didn't have any savings. I'm doing a bad job at sticking to my new diet. I waste too much time watching TV because I can't get myself motivated to do much else. My family is constantly getting angry at me over one thing or another. I'm a total failure in every aspect of my life.

After eating way too much junk food, I told my sister that I just wanted to die. She told me to stop being so dramatic, but then I realized that I really meant it. Cutting myself isn't enough anymore, I literally want to die in the most painful way possible because I'm such a pathetic failure that I don't deserve to live. I know I'm not going to actually do it because I'm too weak, but I want to so badly.