I really like YT....we talked about my resistance to talking about past...we talked about most of my fears about it...we talked about what I hoped it would accomplish... What he thought it would accomplish....

I have more fears I didnt realize i had....like what if he doesnt believe it happened...what if he doesnt think its a big deal ( cause when i look at it logically as an adult some of its not...but the child inside me feels like it was a very big deal...)...what if the feelings it brings up i cant handle and i lose it mentally...

We also talked about difference between talking about it as a reporter and talking about it as i felt about it as a child....i said i didnt know how to do other than reporter and he said that was his job all i had to do is be willing to talk about it.... That felt nice....