Seriously, what did you expect therapy to be like? Exchanging funny stories with your T, just a great time? No, it's going to get painful and emotional some times. That's why it's called therapy. It's not barbaric at all, in fact they use kit gloves on us. I suppose it could be compared to pulling a tooth, hurts for a bit then you feel better after a couple of days once the pain wears off. If it's torture for you I would bring that up with your T. Perhaps you can both explore what might be causing you to feel that way. Good luck to you!