FL,

maybe you shouldnt "fake" a happy face. just be honest. theres no harm in honesty. why not try turning up and saying how unhappy you have been since you left work, and maybe, just maybe you will find that she cares and will want to help. if not, well then she isnt worth the time of the day. please dont be fake, theres no need, if you are down, you are down, theres nothing you or anyone can do about it. lying abd being fake only causes more stress, as you boldly explained. ("I feel that if I try to fake a "happy face" it will come across as being insincere. The fear of being found out is almost as uncomfortable as the depression itself. Maybe it feels like a feeling of weakness")

learn to be yourself, you will find so many more honest reliable friends this way.

good luck, and know i am here if you need me.

simon