This is the problem, I cant make myself go and play with her, I have been trying all day. Its why I made this thread. The days I am able force myself to do groundwork with her are few and far between. Its not enjoyable, I end up thinking that a useless halfhearted session with her is worse than having just left her in the paddock. I want to ride but cant and I dont know WHY?

Im about to go and muck out and give her a brush and dinner, but then I just see how unfit and fat she is and feel more guilty, stable her for the night then come back and hide in my house telling myself that I'll ride her for sure tomorrow...