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Originally Posted by IndieVisible
Seriously, what did you expect therapy to be like? Exchanging funny stories with your T, just a great time? No, it's going to get painful and emotional some times. That's why it's called therapy. It's not barbaric at all, in fact they use kit gloves on us. I suppose it could be compared to pulling a tooth, hurts for a bit then you feel better after a couple of days once the pain wears off. If it's torture for you I would bring that up with your T. Perhaps you can both explore what might be causing you to feel that way. Good luck to you!
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Well, no. I did not expect it would be a walk in the park. I've been to therapy in the past and that's another story for another day, but basically have not had this intense of an attachment with a T before....
I want the therapy to work for me. I want to understand how I can process things and "do the work" and how that will look on the other side. I'm not saying it should be easy or whatnot. I'm saying that I want to know Im not going to be in therapy for the rest of my life because I have things on hold that depend on me "getting better", or at least improving. I didn't go to therapy for nothing.
BOTH of my parents went to their own therapy for years and years, and both of them don't seem much for the better IMO. So why would I go too? Because I've tried everything I know how to try apart from it and nothing has made an impact. I've tried churches, community groups, self-help groups, self-help books, throwing myself into my work, prayer (still do this) and on and on.....still my suicidal thoughts, depression, anxiety, urges to Si and more persist. So I tried therapy and I really feel I've done my best despite the fact that my anxiety soars for hours before every session. My T is very kind and present and he's not a reason for me to get so anxious. It's prob the material that gets activated in T that causes these reactions.
So yeah. No, not a walk in the park. Just want to know all this isn't being done in vain.