Sometimes I feel revulsion when I think of them, but it's been a long time since I had therapy and dealt with the abuse.

Since they are dead, I don't have to see them. I've dreamt of one but I didn't feel the revulsion in the dream. I don't know why.

Fuzz, you need to talk to a therapist about it, get it in the light of day then work to put it behind you. Once you've dealt with it, it's easier to not think about it.

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