Another person that agrees with the previous replies, here! It is indeed very difficult to say "yes", "no" or even "possibly" over the internet. From what I've read, there isn't enough to go on to decide on my own personal and definitely unprofessional opinion. I'm also a gay male and I know how difficult it can be, perhaps some of what you are experiencing could more be to do with your sexuality (coming to terms with it fully, overcoming your past, etc) than a Bipolar Disorder.

Everybody has ups and downs in their life and from what you've described it's difficult to say something like "I think it's a possibility" as Bipolar Disorder is a lot more than that. There are also a handful of other mood disorders (depression, dysthymic disorder, SAD, etc) and personality disorders (such as Borderline Personality Disorder) and most of these disorders have overlapping symptoms which can often lead to a misdiagnoses.

I know I said it's difficult to say but there is the possibility. You should definitely see a healthcare professional with your concerns once able to, until then try and keep a track of your mood changes with a mood diary of some sort - this will be useful when following up with a professional. You can also try making some changes at home to see if it can alleviate your symptoms slightly.

Please remember to check back with us once you've seen a Healthcare Professional and feel able to browse all the forums at PsychCentral to better develop your understanding of Bipolar Disorder and other disorders and to get support for issues you face whilst waiting for your documents to be sorted.

Be kind to yourself
RB.