Dear CasColours, how old are you?? Are you an adult or a still a child.

Please have NO doubt....you are being abused. You are being forced to do sexual stuff by someone who holds the power position (anyone older than you - in this case, your caretakers). You are being beaten with a belt. EVERYONE needs unconditional love and acceptance.

Your caretakers are abusing you and giving a pathetic excuse that "you are provoking them to do this.".......a classic line ALL abusers use to live in the delusion that they are not at fault, they are being MADE to do all this, because the victim is behaving "poorly".

If you are a child, please call the abuse helpline in your country. A quick search revealed - Advies- en Meldpunten Kindermishandeling, AMK.....or maybe COPS?

If you are unable to call anyone, please tell your school - a teacher you trust, your principal, school counselor?? If not, tell your neighbor. If not, tell your uncle or aunt you trust.

Tell anyone you can....but DON'T suffer in silence. I never told anyone and it has left some terrible mental pains. Stop it when you can and TALK. Your abuser may also need help and by telling and getting help (from authorities), you will not only help yourself, you will also help the abuser.

TALK NOW. Earlier, the better.

If you are an adult....run away from where you are and call the COPS. Get help with a therapist. Stuff like these leave trauma for a lifetime. Work with a therapist to heal the wounds and gain control of your life.

Good luck! We are here to help!