So, I apologized again and I got no reaction from her. All she said is "oh, I don't know Anna" and after a while, I guess my emotions were too much for her because she left the office shortly after and has been gone for over an hour, which is not unusual but I know that means she wants to take a break from me because she is tired of me.

I also told her I do appreciate the effort she has done in the past to help me, even if it seems like any progress we made has reset back to zero, but I still got no reaction from her. What is making me feel worse right now is I am going on vacation tomorrow and leaving us like this is going to bother me the whole entire time and it almost makes me feel like taking a vacation wont even be worth it. I feel like I may have cut the last strand of friendship we may have had and that has me gutted.