This happens to me and is happening with the person I love most. It's almost like you want to stop it but you just can't. My skin starts crawling and stuff and it goes on from there. I can't explain it and I wish I was happy that I was not alone, but it is a terrible thing to have to deal with. I either have mania, depression, or severe irritability borderlining physical abuse. The "normal" only shows it's head for a brief look and I wake up each day wondering what or who I will be. The first time I was an inpatient, two weeks before I went off on a clerk at the store and then the manager. At that time it was very unlike me, now it is like me.....I hope you can catch hold of yours and when you do let me know how you did it because I have no answer sorry but I have that and it's down right scary/