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No, you are not being a drag. You are hurting. You don't want to do this anymore and I don't blame you. It sucks when you can't find any meaning in anything anymore.
I am so sorry you are having such a rough time of it.
I do know how you feel, if it's any conselation.
I wish you all the best and if you ever need to talk, I am here for you.
Hugs,
Linda