Hi there

Hi Bugeaud and Hunter Storm,
I feel a little(?) like you, but the difference is that I'm a little schyzoid/schyzotypal (I always confuse the two), and I feel great alone, I rarely feel any need to be with people or to socialize or to share feelings.
I used to have friends and romantic relationships but then the things got akward, and after some years struggling with the lonelyness I learned to accept myself and don't blame myself for my situation, and now I'm seeking for help in order to be "normal" again.

Bugeaud: if you're depressed, like, deseased (there are other types of depressions, like reactional-or something like this), you should seek for a professional. Of course you can get a bit better by yourself, by doing things, anything that you enjoy and keeps you distracted from self pity: something like helping others, sports, studies, etc. My best wishes for you.