I did consider it H3rmit but after my behavior I wouldn't feel comfortable being there. I would constantly be thinking everyone hates me and as immature as that makes me sound (yes, I am 31yrs old Perna) it's true and when I'm uncomfortable the crazy comes out. I really am losing all hope here but I've been here before and made it through so I'm going to take Pernas advice and wake up early tomorrow and try for near by job. I'm also going to try to find a therapist that'll work on a sliding scale.
Perna, I can't speak for everyone else but I assume that people who post here are looking for compassion and someone to listen. You are not a therapist don't try to solve people's problems and certainly don't call them liars. I do realize you were only trying to help so I thank you but that's how I feel.