I understand exactly how you feel. However after one month of torture and suffering, yesterday I made up my mind not to focus on my symptoms i.e. I ignored the palpitations, cursed the feeling of intense terror and fear of death.....kept myself fully occupied with the things I enjoy doing on a Saturday...and to my surprise it worked!!! I had a wonderful day yesterday. Hope I can sustain it again today. Try it and see if it works..it takes a lot of "bad mind" to do it!!