I want a child, more than anything. Obviously not right now (I'm still 19 and not exactly in a good place) but eventually.

It's so difficult though. I'm a gay male and even though my long-term boyfriend also wants a child, he wants one of his own; he doesn't want to adopt. I'm probably going to have a lot of judgement silently thrown at me for this but it's what I want.

It'd also be nice to get a boring office job, a mortgage and a home and die peacefully in my sleep at old age, before my partner does.

Never going to get that though. Any of it :'(