Well first I was diagnosed with major depression that was back in 87, then it was upgraded in 89 to bipolar which I questioned from the start. I never get fully manic, at best hypomania, but heres what makes me doubt even bipolar II. Yes I do get hypomania but in no where near the time frame of cycles indicated in the DSM IV. I may get mixed episodes, depressed episodes, and no episodes some times even 2 to 3 years apart. Just doesn't seem to make sense. Also, I get intense paranoia at times, and I do get delusional, and have hallucinated. The hallucinations are few and far apart been happen in the form of auditory outside of my head voices, tactical, feel like some one is touching me, very rarely visual. So I have absolutely no idea what to make of all this and my pdocs refuse to change my diagnosis, well one was considering BPD but I laughed, asked me whats so funny. I said I'm almost 99% sure I'm not BPD, I am not needy, clingy over emotional or sensitive, have no abandonment issue, no self harm or suicidal, and my moods can last for a week or two. He agreed prolly not but bipolar stays in my records. I just don't think that's a good fit either. Honestly I don't think I fit in any of the disorders, I may be a new one