Emotions were not looked upon favorably in my home - I was always threatened with getting it more. My parents were, and still are, very antisocial. No one is allowed in their home, it is kind of like their fortress, emotion wise as well.

I used to be able to shut down for my emotions and feel nothing. That was good - no pain, no more stress. Until I started seeing my T and he forced me to FEEL things and to get into contact with all these things and now everything just goes haywire.

When I get stressed, I get stressed. All of a sudden I need meds and therapy - whereas before I was emotionless and drug-free. I try very hard not to feel anything, esp. lately.


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